I’m sitting here trying to think of something beauty related to post about but I have so many other things on my mind. I haven’t been really public with my personal life since I stopped YouTube, but I never want to lose that personal connection on my blog.
Whenever people ask me if I could go back to any year of my life I always say 2013. 2013 was so good and I was such an ungrateful brat. It was my last year of high school and the last year of my whole family living at home. I remember specifically that year I was always was waiting and waiting for my life to get better, when I really did have anything I ever wanted. I was always complaining and thinking about the future that I planned out, and completely lost sight of everything right in front of me.
Now I’m in the future, and would actually give up anything to live another day in 2013. It’s crazy how we spend so much time looking for everything that we already have, you know? I live an amazing life right now and am extremely thankful every day, but I think it’s so easy to get caught up in the wrong things and lose sight of what’s really important. We think there’s this certain lifestyle, certain amount of money, job, relationship, etc. will make us happy and waste so much time waiting for life to be better. If you look a little deeper you probably have a never-ending list of things to be thankful for and happy about.
I guess this is all just hitting me now because I just finished packing up the pink and green room I had for all 21 years of my life. It’s so fucking weird to me that an entire chapter of my life is about to be over. I couldn’t wait till the day I would be out of my house growing up and was so happy to temporarily move to different places. We’re about to be out of there and I’ve been home every chance I could get the past few weeks. When I’m home now, I never want to leave.
I would do anything to live another day when my parents were together and I’d come home to my whole family. When my best friend in the entire world was just across the street. When certain people were in my life that I never thought I could grow apart from. And when my biggest stress in life was what I was gonna wear to a high school basketball game.
There’s this common misconception that happiness is on it’s way. That it’s some sort of destination and you have a lot to do before you can get there. I promise, if you live your life like that you will never be satisfied. Every single day is a gift, and even if it’s the worst day you’ve lived so far, there’s always going to be something to smile about.
I rarely think about the future anymore. I have so many dreams and goals, but I’ve learned to just be. That everything will figure itself out, and there’s no need to wait on change to start to appreciate everything you have.
The point of this is just a reminder to take things day by day. Don’t wait until Friday, finishing school, or moving out to reach what you think will be happiness. You don’t need to accomplish a few more things, get that dream job, or meet the perfect guy to get there.
You have everything you could ever need right in front of you. Don’t wait until it’s too late to see it. 🙂